Surprise Blown

As most people know I can't keep a secret. I never intentionally spill the beans , I just mess up.
I have been trying to keep a secret from my grandparents that we would be home for Christmas. Earlier this week my Grandmother lead me to believe she knew we were coming home. I played it cool and didn't let her know I was. Then again today she talked about me coming home. She was basically like, so what day are you going to be here. Grandma I said. She said you cant kid a kidder. I know . Grandma's always know. LOl. She has been picking up on comments that people say. I guess my mother made a reference about DS and DD like some clings that she was putting up so grandma just assumed from there I was coming. Then we are getting a family portrait when we go home and and my grandma almost asked my sister while talking to her so when is your sister coming home. LOL. Grandma said you cant have a family portrait with out every one. LOL . We were all trying to be slick by Grandma saw right through it. LOL. I think the funniest was when my Uncle was over there the other night Grandma was like do you know if Jennifer is coming home for Christmas and he just smiled ear to ear she said. LOL. I made a comment about my brother calling and something or other and she knew from that too.
Cover blown. That's OK. We all tried. we just cant fool the Grandma :) In the end this works out better for me as she will be able to make my Coconut cake for me now :)

A bit of a Scare

Today was like every other day when we go to the mail box. Ds loves to run ahead of me and Dd running right behind me :). He goes to the mail box opens it and is so excited that there is another key in it to the big mailbox. The big mail box holds packages that do not fit into the little box. He opens it and there sits a pretty green and white striped oblong box addressed to me in my maiden name . I looked it over and did not know what it was. Ds said what did you order mommy. I could not think of anything. It was a box from The Swiss Colonial. I then looked to see who the sender was. All it said was hugs and kiss. Merry Christmas from the ........ I immediately had so many emotions going though me . I started to cry then I was scared. My heart jumped into my throat. It was address Merry Christmas from the and the last name was my old married name from Ds Sperm Donor. I didn't know what to do. We have heard nothing from that family since Ds was a little over 8 months old. NO cards , no presents, no phone calls ( the restraining order took care of that, well after a while anyways.) So why now. I kept on a rage for a while. It was very upsetting to me. My Husband kept saying its OK, it will be all right. I assured it wasn't and I just kept going on. I could not get over the fact that I thought his family found us. I have nothing tied to me here as far a finding me. Unless theres a way that I don't know about. My ex husband has no visitation rights no anything. So me freaking out was very justifiable. The package had a tracking label on it but that was it.
As soon as I walked into the house I opened the package and thew its contents directly into the garbage. I didn't even unwrap it I didn't care. I just wanted it gone. What a fitting rage I was in. My husband at first didn't really know what was going to . I am sure he thought I was a crazy person until he put two and two together.
I went back into the house took it out of the trash and was going to send it right back to my ex mother in laws house. As it would have been sent by her not my ex husband.
After about an hour past something came into my head. I just kept trying to figure out how they found me. Then I thought about the company it came from and kept thinking. Finaly I remembered my neighbors from Oklahoma's. Their last name was the same as my ex married name.
Thank god I thought. It must be from them . It has to be. I called them and sure enough it was from them. I was so relieved all I could do was cry all over again.
In the end my husband said, see all that was for nothing. Thank goodness. I am so happy and life can go on as normal :)
I guess with the recent court date this week I was on heightened alert.