Changes

To many changes are happening a bit too fast for me right now. We are at the end of Gilbert's military career, I am with in the week of closing my daycare, we start the summer with in the week with all three kids, and we will be moving in a little over a week. Its all happening at one time and its becoming a little bit overwhelming for me. I have stayed on top of my daily lists crossing them off and getting things accomplished but it seems that I am getting a little behind. My clean organized house is not i a hundred little pieces. I need to get it all straight for my work week starting Tuesday.
Its not going to be easy this week for my daycare. The emotions are already running for me. There is one baby girl whom we have just fallen in love with. She reminds us of our Diana. I keep finding myself saying, I wont see her walk, I wont see her in her prime over the next few years, hearing her talk. Gilbert has become very fond of her. He usually runs right over to her every morning, at at nap time and then when he comes home from work. Its different from all the other babies that I have had. Its going to be rough. Theres another little girl a few years older than Diana but Diana just loves her. I keep hearing her sweet voice in my head. I hope that keeps on as well to. Shes a ray of sunshine and she makes you smile.
I have been job interviewing since last week. Its gone great but trying to pick up the right situation for me is very difficult. I have had great offers and many opportunities but not one is 100 % perfect . Its going to be much different from what I am doing now. Now I have my Kids with me all the time( except when deans at school) . When I go back to work I will not have them with me. I have never done that before. Its going to be a struggle for me and for the kids. I am not sure how well we will all adjust to it but we will have to find a way.